C:\>Wading Back Into It

Well, hello, there.

Clearly, it's been a moment since last I graced your trembling eyeballs. I had a lot of fire in me at the time, and I still do, but I've grown quite tired as well. It can be quite exhausting indeed to realize, slowly, in real time, that your expectations for a paradigm shift were not only accurate, but, if anything, a bit of a lowball. And so it was that I spent well over a year in a hazy fugue state of self-pity, dragging myself forward by my graying nose hairs as the world around me gradually immolated.

But I cannot forget that I made a promise. To those of you who might gain something from a more public sort of breakdown, yes, but also to myself. For a very long time, I have felt forcibly muted when it came to matters of importance, both to the world at large and within my own life. I no longer feel that way as much, but the habit of staying silent and unseen haunts me like a flatulent wraith. And so it is that I have chosen to catapult myself into a visibility of my own choosing, because if I am going to die some day (as we all do, thank god), then I'm gonna go to my grave having exposed to the world just how irreparably fucked in the head I really am.

So here I am, making the commitment to both stranger and self to return to this site and resurrect it, so that I may exorcise my brain of its filth and give you all something to gawk at. Beats therapy, don't it?